Thy Mercy is More Than a Match for My Heart

Hello sweet friends!! It has been months since I have posted. Mostly because I COULDN'T FIND MY BLOG for a few weeks. I'm serious. It went AWOL.

This post is going to be for the ladies. Sorry, gents.

Oh, what God has been doing in my very soul never ceases to amaze me! He has been faithful to teach me in the secret places of my heart, and I have struggled to sit still long enough to listen to His lovely words. Mostly his words sound like whispers of ....'patience'....'good things'...'satisfy'. I have been struggling very hard with thoughts of loneliness and depression. These things are relatively new to me, I've always been able to 'brush my shoulders' off and soldier on. But lately my feet have been getting stuck in the muck of my desires, and I whine to myself, instead of cry out to God. Have you felt this way? I hope I'm in good company!

At Journey this past weekend, Jamie said something that has made my life IMMENSELY better. He challenged us to look at the Godly men that meet as BROTHERS, not potential husbands. When you're 24 and on your own, this is not the natural reaction to an attractive, independent, God-fearing man. On the contrary, my impulse is not to shake his hand and call him 'brother', but instead to jump into his arms and direct him in the way of the threshold. The truth is this: If at this point in my life God is calling me to be single, I have two choices: One- be single and happy, surrounded by my 'family', devoting myself to God's call. Two- be miserable and pouty, always seeking approval of men and not finding peace and being useless. I think I'll pick door #1, thank you very much.

I have more to blog about, but alas, it is time for school. Love to all, in the name of the Father!